Balance of the Creation

Far in a land there in lived a man who wondered what is creation? and how was he born?how the universe came? this unguided question became his quest for centuries. Wherever he moved whatever he did this question never left him. In the quest for finding the answer he created a whole civilization and still the riddle remains to be unsolved.

But he found one thing that gave him new quest or new lease in his search he found that as long as he was with the question he got an answer to it and the minute the he got an answer there was another question but still the riddle is unsolved. He wondered whether there is any answer to this question. In the course of this adventure he faced many problems which he solved which made him realise the limitations of his thinking. So he thought instead of going after the original question which has a never ending tale of answers he would overcome his limitations. So he started to ovecome his limitation one by one.

His first problem was he wanted food so he worked so hard that he had sufficient food. Then he wanted someone to look after him and he found a girl. He did everything so that the two would be happy and then he started a family had children. He was very happy with them. Then he wanted to see that whatever he learned should be taught to his children so that they would not reinvent the wheel. So for every problem he got he started putting down a solution to it which he started giving it to the children then one day he found that when he was giving a solution to them the children were never really applying themselves. So he thought for a while and then he only gave them questions and problems . Then some children would solve questions and problems very interestingly whereas other had not a clue about or were never interested in the question which made him think again he thought what was it that was limiting them there?

Then he started thinking why some of his children are struck? and why some or not and also he observed that some of the children who could solve the puzzle are either very down to earth and some are arrogant and were beginning to influence others. So he deviced some methods to overcome this. He started giving punishment for the arrogant and encouragement for the slow children then he began to ponder whether in his life he was like the children. He realised there were some situations when he felt he was slow and some situations he was faster and also he was arrogant and silly. He also faced the things that children were facing but the only thing that struck to him was he never saw it as the problem but with the children he was seeing it as the problem. He realised that he only questioned why iam like this and why iam not that?

Slowly with introspection he found out that it was more than the actuality he was more concerned with the word . Its more than the childrens ability/inability. So he thought what is making one child able and one child less able? all were his children but one was able and one was not able. He decided to try a new technique with which he started to give different questions to them. To his alarming he found that still one child was good and other was not so good. To add to his problem all the good were not good in all and all the not so good were not so bad in all. Then he realised that problem was not with them but with something else as he also felt that he was good at some and not good at other. So he began a new experiment.

As a part of the experiment he wanted to put an end to the problem that any one of his children has . His vision was no child of his should ever have a problem in anything they take up. He wanted to put an end to this limitation that he felt would put an extinction to his family. He did not know how to start because for the first time in his life he felt that he was limited and that shook his ego. He was enraged but he thought he had nothing in his hands the only thing he has was his experience and his children to work with.

He started to think about this questions for hours, days and months. He never got an answer for that. He was angry irritated and frustated but still the answer eluded him. Then one day he could not sleep the whole night but he still got up at his usual time. He felt that his body is not feeling good. He felt that he should do something for the body. So he bent and touched the body. He felt like doing it again. After doing for some time he felt that he was feeling very good. He felt a great rush of force and new energy which hitherto was never felt. He wanted to do again. But he could not get the same feeling. He then was thinking about the problem the whole day. He felt like doing the same set of bending again so he did it in the evening. He again felt a great force and a new energy in his body. He tried to continue but he did not felt again.

That night he slept very happily he felt that he found something but he could not know what. His mind was only thinking of the great force and energy.

Next morning he did the same thing but he felt he was not doing correctly he tried to improvise but the energy and the force were missing but he knew that something was definitely there. Then from that day he would get up every day in the morning and would do this set of bending the body and every day he would improvise. Seeing this his children also started to doing this, he did not deny as he felt that this was a nice way of making his children play.

He did this for few months he found that he was more close to surroundings he could feel the air and trees and there was freshness in his body but the original question just passed around his mind then suddenly he realised that there was something that he felt with his children they were more close to each other. He felt the arrogant child trying to help other child. He was astounded he could never imagine that. He suddenly felt a wave of emotion going through his body. His eyes filled with tears and his heart felt tenderness. He never felt like this in his lifetime it was completly different with what he was before. From that day he began to get this feeling regularly he never felt like taking of this emotion from him. He wondered what is this?

Some more time he felt that he was becoming emotional about everything and even small things were bothering him he never felt that he was right/wrong . He wondered he was never like this before even his wife felt that there was change in him but she never said what is it. Suddenly one day he saw a storm which came by. It was ferocious and in his life he first felt fear. He felt that he was nothing but a small thing before that he could not do anything but he wanted to protect the children. He was shivering from top to toe seeing their father the children also felt fear. Seeing this he realised that whatever he was, his children also were doing the same or feeling the same. So he took all his family near and closed his eyes then he heard a deafening song outside but he did not felt like opening his eye as he only prayed that his children should be alive. He felt something . It was the most confused moment of his whole life. And the storm passed by.

He began to repair his house and he found that there was more empathy among them. He realised that he remembered that he felt some thing that was not touched before in the storm. He thought that felt it inside him. He began to wonder that he had no control of outside things he only was limited by his stature . He could only control or command the things that were within his stature. So he began to see inside him.

He wondered what was inside him and whether it can provide him with something which was eluding him from sometime. So everyday he used to close his eyes and only used to see inside. It was full of darkness with nothing in it. He felt that he there is nothing in it and was about to open his eyes when he found a small dot of light in him. Even before he realised that he has seen it he opened his eyes so he closed his eyes and tried to seach for it. He wondered how can there be light in him. He felt that it should have some deeper meaning. He never understood why he felt like that but he felt that it has some deeper meaning.

So some more time he began to do this but he could not find anything in the meantime he felt like bending his body again. He bent his body and began to close his eyes after doing that. He felt a very different feeling and he saw the light again. He wanted to practice this so he began practicing this and also taught his children all the things.

In the course of time he felt that his children were becoming increasingly responsible and he felt that the not so good in some things are catching up faster than he expected. Suddenly he realised that he was less emotional than before and that his emotions are under control. He began to wonder how this could be possible then he felt that there was some connection with what he doing but he could not connect.

Some more days went by then he started to think about his past and present and his unanswered question. But he felt that he was better than before. He found a strange connection between his past and present. He felt that there was some connection but that night he slept happily. He woke up in morning he felt as if he got answer to his question. He felt that whatever was happening in him were there in a sequence which he preferred to call order he did not know why but he felt that was the right word.

He felt the necessity of telling this to others but as always he felt that he always was limited by words . He felt that can this order be achieved in others? he wondered what would be the end of order? he did not get the answer. In the course of his work he stopped for a while and thought about the question. He felt there would be no end to order.

He wondered how he got this answer and he could identify everytime he had a question he got an answer. He then wondered how is this possible? He thought that he should have a note of this as he felt that he should bring out a validity of this. He never understood why he felt like that but he began to note every question he got and amazingly found that he always got an answer to it. This was like in the beginning but the difference he knew he would get an answer.

One day when he was eating something got struck in his throat . He felt a great pain in his throat. He could not take breath, he began panting, his family members were worried and tried to help him. After some struggle he could regain his breath. It took his some while to be back to his normal.

The next day he felt that he was going to get some thing big in his actions. He donot know why but he forgot to note that in his book. He felt what would happen if his breath is gone. He never realised that breath is so important to live. He never has a moment in his life when his breath is absent. It was always there in the days and nights. He wondered how could his breath function always ? what is the thing that made it work? he does not know why but he felt like calling it a force but he preferred to. He wondered whethere anything can function in the same mode as breath without stopping even for a while and without losing rythm.

He began to write a book ........
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